21 February 2009

Irregular Distractions....

Ah!! The delights of easy, relaxed, empty days. We are not having classes at the university these last few days and its is making me so happy as now I'm entitled to more "me-time". I wonder what to write( Because I'm spoilt with options). The world has so much to tell, so many news and gossips run around everywhere but still I’m left with nothing to describe but then the realization sets in that I write for myself and some people have accidentally become a part of these lone conversations. I have so much to tell but then I don't chose to give away everything.
Strange fascinations are an integral part of all of us. We just don't know where they reside, inside. They have a silent existence but suddenly they do raise their head, particularly at inopportune moments and then .. Well, thats how stories form, I guess.
How we love ‘certain obscure things’.. I wonder why some things and feelings never fade. I leave with these words. Don’t muse over its meaning because it is not meant to mean anything. These are just passing thoughts on an ordinary day, the tired eyes spin a tale out of the most mundane things and this is what one is left with --

I see you in a crowded place
I become tired of the noise and the everyday happenings.
Too much of non-fiction has worsened my habit
And then that sudden shift in your lips, flashing a smile at me,
Raises a little hope, again gives form to hidden meanings,
Little by little.
I know I should not be thinking anything-
So I only let the petty pleasure exist for some few more seconds.

12 February 2009

NOTHING EXTRAORDINARY ABOUT THIS WEDNESDAY

I started the blog wth the sole aim of giving vent to the writing spirit but with the passing of each day it just wilted, no, not the desire to write but the strenght to type, to sit in front of the computer, to wait for the page while its being downloaded and a slow server only maximises the effort, making it tiring. So, all these while I have been scribbling anecdotes and rhymless verses and losing them all. The problem is- when you have got so much to write that you know your fingers will get sore. Life, if written down, is an epic no one will ever one to re analyse but then its the opinion of an imbecile like me and I'm sure I am wrong. See, once again I'm writing something which has no meaning, not in parts and not even in totality.
The monotony of life has taken its toll. Happiness is ever so welcomed but it is so ephemeral. Letting things go is never easy, still you have to. I just want to sit with my favourite book of poems, enjoy the sinking sun in the orange sky, want to sing beautiful song in tuneless voices with my sister and have a laugh riot over the silliest of jokes... but at present it all seems like a far fetched dream....

11 February 2009

USELESS BROODING

The chill of this winter is transitory.
You are just a phase,
I believe you'll soon diminish.